{Faith & Will - ewe & lamb in the nursing stalls in May
and coming back to the farm in two weeks, yeah!}
and coming back to the farm in two weeks, yeah!}
(*I am reading Julia Cameron's book~ Faith & Will, obviously influencing my post today)
Can you count on your fingers how many times you have felt God's divine intervention this week?
I am certainly not here to say that I am overly blessed, or special or that I am treated better...No, I am just amazed today by how much good comes when I take a minute to see it.
I am not sure how it works. I am not sure I want to try to figure it out. I just want to *be still and be amazed* You know that feeling?
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So demanding! I couldn't see the good for my huge ugly shadow- always moving, unhappy, big butted...
Thankfully (in the not so recent past) I gave up. Yep, I just gave up~
I relaxed my "have to's". So many of my choices were unproductive & un-needed. I decided that unrealistic expectations are always a losing game (simplistically speaking), and that I was much happier when I wasn't so concerned about my irritable inner-perfectionism (she is mean!).
And...a brilliant thing happened.
{Pipsqueek- another little favorite, also coming home September 30}
Life's loveliness came into focus. A hyper-aware sense of gratitude flooded my heart. All around me a new motivation was unfolding. Like a wild science experiment I watched in wonder:
I lost my need to have my needs met by those around me (especially poor husband). I was free.
I lost my need to be in charge all the time. I was free.
I lost my closest friend - my hyper-critical-inner-critic. I was free.
I had this lasting awareness of good and a heart that felt an abundance of love~ that could flow out. I could take action on what was good. Realizing that abundant love creates/sustains/attracts/duplicates more abundant love...Brilliant!
Why don't they teach you this when you are twenty?! Really.
{another lovely lamb also coming home from summer camp}
Are you wresting with God on your path? Have you found peace? Do you wish you had figured it out at twenty, too?
I am praying for me (and you) in this messy barnyard of life~
With a love that is BIG~
Mucho amor a ustedes,
jj